I lost my job yesterday. I don’t know how much more I can handle. Trying to rely on my faith through this, but just don’t understand why this is all happening.

I just filled out an application to ensure that my organs are donated upon my death. You can do that here. But, more on that later. On this application, I filled out my last address, and I have to say, although, I’ve often filled out the wrong month or the wrong year, this is unlike me. Whenever I have a new address, it’s always been a move up for me, so I’ve been excited to write my new address.

So, here’s what has me thinking. You guys – this IS a move UP for me. I am ME. And, for those of you who really know me – you’ll know this is true, so very true. But, I can’t seem to let go, and it’s not of Zane, it’s of that house.

But, on the other hand, this apartment has been so very good of me. As I was hanging pictures on Saturday, I realized, that only one picture I hung had been hung at our (Zane’s and my) home. But, why? Why couldn’t I hang it there. I will admit, I have some girly stuff (Vintage Vogue, Vintage Barbie, etc,) BUT, on the other hand, I have, what I believe to be the most beautiful picture ever – of both sets of my grandparents at my parent’s wedding. Now, to me, that should have been one of the very first things to be hung. It wasn’t. But, to me, here in RHIANNON’S house it was. Out of the four of my grandparents, I know that I am SO lucky to have 3 of them living, but, I feel SO lucky to have all four of them here in my home.

So, back to the organ donor statement at the beginning. As many of you know, the mother of one of my very, very best girl friend’s from high school passed away just last week from liver disease. She had been waiting, and waiting for a liver transplant and unfortunately, one didn’t come for her. I could never articulate how amazing Amy’s mother is – but – to try, she had a beautiful smile, an infectious laugh, and she was one parent I LOVED seeing at school (as she volunteered in the career center in our high school during our senior year). Anyway, not just because of Amy’s mother, whom I love as my own, but because of THOUSANDS of others mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, children, etc. etc. etc. PLEASE visit this website Because, did you know, that even if you designate yourself as an organ donor on your driver’s license, your family can still make a different decision for you! So, please take a couple minutes of your time and fill out the form!

Today, in this fine city (which by the way is supposed to reach 102 today), I spied the following:

- A child with a rat-tail (child abuse, if you ask me).
- A girl air-drumming this morning with her headphones on, on the Max.
- A man holding his wife’s milkshake to his forehead at lunch today. After he removed the milkshake from his head, he began to go through her purse.

And, the day is young people, I still have hours to go. I love this place.