Thursday, April 10th, 2008
In this post, we’ll refer to him as Hugh Jass. My pal Belinda called him that once over the summer, and if the shoe fits? Well, you know what they say.
So, we’ve covered that he called on Friday to tell me the news. And we’ve covered that I was NICE about it. What we haven’t covered is that I can’t stop thinking about it. In this case, I truly believe that ignorance may be bliss.
It’s not because I wish it was me. Because, nothing could be FURTHER from the truth. This was the hardest breakup I’ve had in my life, but I could not be happier that we are no longer together. He was controlling, hypocritical, insensitive, and a million more things that I can really do without. So, why is this haunting me?
I think this is it. I know the girl. We used to work together. I was cordial to her, we worked in the same department for heavens sake, but really? Not a fan. And, I remember toward the end of Hugh’s and my relationship, her name was mentioned more times than I am currently comfortable with.
And, here is where I make an accusation. I think Hugh started a relationship with this girl before he and I broke up. He and I broke up 9 months ago – that’s not very long to date someone before proposing marriage.
I know it does not matter now. And, it really only underlines the fact that Hugh and I should not be together. But, what it does do is remind me of how badly I want my happily ever after. I’m 29. I’m ready to settle down. My friends are getting engaged. They’re having babies. I’m reading blogs of people much younger than me who are married, and pregnant. I’ll never say it’s not fair, because I know that there is a plan for all of us. But, what is mine? When will it happen for me?
So, there you have it. My whining for the week night. Now pardon me, I am going to adjust my tv antenna in the hopes of getting The Office to come in clearly. Wish me luck