Wednesday, May 20th, 2009
But on the other hand
I love living alone.
But, on the other hand, I hate having to wait for the boy to come over after work. I hate that there is nobody to blame for the coffee being out. Have you tried to put a duvet cover on by yourself? It is HARD.
In the same respect, I love that the boy and I have decided not to live together until we’re married (if we decide to marry, that is).
But, on the other hand, I hate having to call him to tell him silly things. I wish I could instead just turn to him on the couch to tell him said silly thing. I hate packing a bag to go stay at his house. I hate not waking up next to him every single morning.
I love my job.
But, on the other hand, I hate my commute. I miss leaving my house at 7:15 and arriving at work at 7:30. Now, I leave my house at 7:15 and barely arrive by 8:00. (Please note, this is the only thing I miss about old job).
I’m proud of the way I “turned out,” despite having a really tumultuous childhood.
But, on the other hand, I didn’t deserve what my mother put me through. At 30 years old, some things still haunt me. I wish I had memories of a happier childhood.
I’m thrilled with the relationship my father and I have.
But, on the other hand, I’m sad that it took as long as it did for us to get here.
I love having this blog for the friendships it’s fostered and the release it provides.
But, on the other hand, I wish I’d kept some things back.


Comments on this post
And now you know EXACTLY what it’s like to have kids.
Well said, rhi.
Amanda’s last blog post..This pretty much sums up my weekend
20. May - 9:24 pmAh, good old living alone. I FREAKING LOVED IT. My boy and I agreed not to move in together until we were engaged (on the basis that I’d lived with two boyfriends prior and I was NOT gonna go through that bs again without a ring on it!). It isn’t to say that I don’t love living with my husband now, but I loved every single minute of living in my own home, decorating it exactly how I wanted to, and even being 100% in charge of what was (or wasn’t) in the pantry. Good times, for sure!
HollyLynne’s last blog post..Makings and Quakings
20. May - 10:19 pmAh the pros and cons of life. ;-) I suppose you could go back and delete what you don’t want out there if it bothers you? I’ve certainly thought of doing that before.
sizzle’s last blog post..Enter For a Chance To Win
20. May - 10:25 pmDon’t be sad that about it taking long for you and your dad to have a good relationship! Be happy that you DO have a good relationship. TRUST ME on that one.
I’m scared that since I’ve lived by myself for like pretty much my whole adult life, that if I ever do get married or move in with a dude, I will not like it and make him get a separate bed. Because I’ve grown used to sleeping right down the middle.
Kristabella’s last blog post..Mary Jane, I Am Not In Love With You
21. May - 6:31 amDoesn’t being an adult suck sometimes?? The decisions, they’re just so HARD.
Kate’s last blog post..Lost & Found
21. May - 7:07 amI definitely liked living alone (for the whole two months that I did it before the wedding:), but it is pretty awesome living with your best friend.
Kaleigha’s last blog post..I have a crush…
21. May - 8:25 amI’ve often regretted some things I’ve released on my blog, but that’s what it’s there for and I wouldn’t go back and delete it. Living alone is good, I miss it sometimes.
21. May - 10:28 amThis is awesome, Rhi. I have these conversations in my head all the time.
Angella’s last blog post..A Partial Cleanse
21. May - 12:26 pmWell said. I sometimes have to remind myself that striving for the perfect situation in any area of my life (job/house/relationship/whatever) is futile.
Blythe’s last blog post..Checking it twice
21. May - 1:57 pmEnjoy the alone living while you can. I love my husband and waking up next to him, but damn I miss having my own place sometimes.
slynnro’s last blog post..Recs! I Need Recs!
21. May - 4:18 pmI used to be a lot more open on my blog, I set some things that I wrote years ago to “Private”. That being said, I feel like I know you and I love your openness. (Is that a word?)
Christine’s last blog post..Rain Rain Go Away
22. May - 10:58 amI am so at that stage with my boy. I like that it’s MY house, but this half living together thing is such a weird limbo.
Sarah’s last blog post..If the Cy Young were voted on right now, it would go to
26. May - 7:35 pmJust found your blog and I love it! By the way, I waited until I was engaged to live with my now-husband. It was partly because I didn’t want to risk going through a horrible move-out/break-up, but it was also partly because I loved living alone! I totally feel you on this one! :)
27. May - 12:01 pm