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First of all, if I had any idea how much better I’d feel by just admitting how I’ve been feeling, I would have done it a long time ago. I’ve said to Bill a few times that I wasn’t feeling quite myself, or that I was down, or that I thought I had a case of the winter sads, but I’d never really admitted to him the extent of it.

So, yesterday I did. And, yesterday we made a plan. I’m going to start taking the supplements I was taking that were working well from The Mood Cure and if those don’t work then, in a few weeks, I’ll make a doctor’s appointment. And, by doctor, I might mean Naturopath. Before we hung up the phone he said four words that made me smile (and maybe cry a little bit). Those four words? “We’re a team now.”

I’m also making some rules for myself. When Bill’s traveling, I have a tendency to go to bed SUPER early because I’m bored. From now on, I’m not allowed to get in bed before 9 p.m. If I’m bored, I’ll find a household chore to do, pick up my knitting, or I don’t know, maybe write on this blog. I will eat dinner every night*, a dinner consisting of a protein, a vegetable and a grain. No drinking at home on school nights (I’ve been doing pretty good with this rule, but I sometimes break it). My best is good enough, and thinking something is not good enough is not an excuse for not completing a task (I’ve had a gift sitting on my dining room table for weeks now that I wouldn’t mail because I thought it wasn’t good enough). There are some other rules about not beating myself up, not comparing myself to others and working out, but I’ll just keep those to myself.

Most importantly, I’m going to stop feeling ashamed of feeling this way. The comments from my previous post reiterated what I already know – it’s okay to be sad, and I’m not alone. So, thank you all for reminding me of that.

*I don’t want you guys to think I’ve not been eating, because I do eat at least 3 meals a day. It’s just that sometimes my evening meal consists of asparagus. And, nothing else.

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I have bad eating habits when I’m on my own, too – I think that’s normal… often times I’ll eat cheese and crackers for dinner, or goat cheese on toast… or just cheese. (Maybe that’s my problem?) Hope you get to feeling more balanced, deary!
Darcey´s last blog ..Woe Is Me

Bill is awesome. You two are a great team. And I like that you came up with a plan. And it’s a good one.

And your best is more than good enough.

Sounds like you picked a good one, Rhi. Been thinking about you!

I love your honesty

Sounds like a good plan. And I know in my case, just making a plan, even just admitting it, made me feel a lot better. Like I stopped lying to myself or something.

Bill is awesome, but you already knew that! I’m so happy you have him on your team!
Kristabella´s last blog ..Winner, Winner, Chicken Dinner

It’s my favorite thing when I’m starting to get upset about something or someone and my husband reminds me “we’re a team” and that I don’t have to stress about it all by myself.
mjb´s last blog ..An attempt at refashioning

I’m so glad you talked to Bill about it. As if feeling bad/sad isn’t bad enough, feeling ALONE in those feelings is worse. And you’re definitely not alone. So glad you have a plan and such a wonderful man on your team.
Kate´s last blog ..Memories

Oh, so good to hear that you have a plan. Hope you are feeling back to yourself soon… and HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY!
Rebecca (Bearca)´s last blog ..I can’t believe I’m posting this

Hooray for a plan!

I get the eating thing – I kept it up for a year after having the flu…It sucks being a girl sometimes.
Angella´s last blog ..Speaking Pointedly

I’m really glad you’re already feeling better. Thinking of you.

It’s so good to have a plan.
Britt´s last blog ..Thrifty Thursday – Wreath Wredo*

I think admitting how we honestly feel is a huge first step towards feeling better. It’s just that when we’re down feeling bad becomes a crutch of sorts. I’m glad you told Bill and that you guys have a plan.
sizzle´s last blog ..Message Received, Universe.

Oh don’t be bored, I’ll keep you company whenever Bill’s out of town. We can even do it without drinks, I know you might think I’m not capable of that, but I am! Darrell is leaving for 3 weeks in March so I might need the favor returned ;)

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